GAME OVER
My 55" inch OLED hasn't been turned on since sometime last year. When it was on, it was to watch YouTube on a larger screen than my phone. I haven't touched my Xboxes, Switches or PlayStations in over a year.
It is unclear what has prevented me from coming to this realization until now, but it is more than safe to say that this gaming ship has sailed for me. It is now time to find new homes for these consoles, and the extensive game libraries attached to them.
The gaming industry is a long-distance cousin from the happy ol' chap I grew up with, and like most other things in the world nowadays trending is more important than longevity.
I have an iPhone 12, an old Apple Watch and my car was made in 2007. I don't give a flying fuck about what is trending. I played games to escape the reality that I was in. I am not interested in having it be a social hub were a lot of people I engage with on a regular basis are done so by a microphone and headset in a very faceless environment. Why did I even buy these consoles all those years ago, was I under some illusion that they were going to somehow backpedal things to the way they used to be? Did I fall for the marketing? Was it FOMO?
All I do know is that this has all been one big waste of time and money. Fuck the money, who cares. Give me back my time! No wait, that's it! That's why I stuck around. I was hoping for some sort of magical moment to make everything—all the money, all the time, all the late nights, all the days being tired as fuck at work cos I could manage the shit out of my inventory in the game, but can't perform simple time management in my own life—something—that justified it all.
Disclaimer: No spelling/grammar checks. I typed this post in Obsidian, pasted it here and clicked 'Publish'.